Thought

I wrote a bunch earlier today, had a lot on my mind, but now it’s all gone. Yeah, I’ve been busy, you’ve been busy too, and so don’t be a dick about my absence. I’ll be gone for the next 10 days or so, messing around with life you could say. This is too short to get locked up in one place too long, basically take your lickings and move one, that’s the motto. I have to sleep now; cause the man needs me tomorrow.

AtaM

Forget about the abstract, it was clear and simple, I was in full withdrawal. Curled up in the fetal position, I commended my fingers to grab the sheet and the pillows, I needed something under me so that I wouldn’t cry and really go back to the beginning of me, when I was helpless, fragile, and needy.“I leave part of myself behind with every smile”. I traveled between worlds during those seventy-two hours, my guide as my companion; I never got lost nor felt lonely. With the knowledge of reality to come, no time was spent unlived; every second was mark by a touch, a smile, or a groan. In this land known as the offspring of our imagination, nirvana was reached, the greatest taste ever created came to meet our tongues, and our melting limbs stroke classical notes. Angels came and sat at the window, meaning to learn about the true meaning of oneness, for during our ritual I came to inhabit you as you did me. Bitterness has flooded my construct with the introduction of our end, still I am grateful because it will take away this half-love state that keeps whole, and true love at bay.

Fence

You can feel it in your bone marrow, something extremely enjoyable that will give birth to pure pain, and ache. Can it be possible to live in the moment, while planning for an enjoyable future? Yes, it’s possible; I’ve lived my life that way. As an undergrad I studied just enough so that I could party as much as possible. Enjoying the moment, while still planning for an agreeable, and comfortable future. Is this the best philosophy to live by, die by? Commit just enough sin so that you can still get into heaven. I think they are only going to admit the sinless, I think, I’ll have to look that up. It has work for me; it has allowed me to taste both the sour and the sweet, it has allowed me to walk on that fence that separates both sides. But you know what they say about walking on that fence; sooner or later you are bound to hit your balls.